Brandon and I had just celebrated our 3rd wedding anniversary (December 2013) when we decided to pull the plug on birth control 200 miles out in the Gulf of Mexico sailing to Jamaica. It was scary as hell and exhilarating all at the same time. Not sure how that's even possible, but it was!
"Are we really ready to do this?" I asked him
"We'll never be ready, but let's just see what happens."
And that's what we did.
But were we really ready to give up this life we've known for quite some time, just the two of us? This life that's perfectly ours.
A few months went by, and nothing. Easter and Memorial Day came, and still nothing. So after talking with a couple of friends of ours who were trying to get pregnant as well, they suggested tracking my ovulation. So I went out and bought the ClearBlue ovulation kit. After tracking for a month, which is rather tedious, we still were not pregnant. It was coming up on Fourth of July time for round two of tracking. I had almost given up hope. (Looking back, I was a bit dramatic.)
During this time I came across a few new blogs, one specifically Liz Marie Blog, about her struggle with infertility, PCOS and multiple miscarriages. My 8 month journey to pregnancy had nothing on her 8 year journey, and they still have not conceived. That definitely put things in perspective for me BIG time. Still praying for you, Liz! xo
I was frustrated that we still weren't pregnant, but Brandon was always so sweet to me, and kept reminding me that it will happen when it's supposed to and when God allows us to become parents. Patience has never really been my forte, but I knew that God was challenging me to seek Him and trust that He has everything in control.
Another month came and went, and we were at my family reunion mid-July when I was set to have my period. I was late the previous month, so it didn't phase me when my period came late again this month. It wasn't until another two weeks later that I still had not started my period that I began to feel anxious. So I decided to take a test which turned up negative, but after that weekend my period was still no where in sight. That following Tuesday another test was up for grabs. Those 5 minutes felt like an eternity. The little hourglass symbol flashed and turned at least 100 times before it finally revealed the results.
That Tuesday will forever be one of the best days of our lives!
Our little lima bean at 9 weeks!